and 100 steps back

i've been drawing a lot lately, but when i get done with something and am satisfied with it, i look at what others have done and I feel like i'm making zero progress. Maybe I should stop watching people more talented than me, it just makes me crazy mad at my current skills and jealous that people can doodle way better than my finished work and not take 4 hours.

hell, i don't even use color or nothing and my lines are jittery as anything.
but, i don't want to stop drawing because if i do i feel like i might not pick it up again.
last time i did that, it was a good 5 years of not even drawing a single line.

but, whatever, like anyone reads these.
and i know ONE person who might comment though, but it feels like a given at this point...